Re: RD 22 : Blues Choke Against Injectors (Anti-Losing Rage)
Reply #163 –
Dear All and Sundry,
I haven’t slept since last night so apologies if I start rambling.
I have been attending football games since the early 70’s, and a full Carlton member for 20 years. I divide that time into two eras; a long, frequently joyful one that I look back upon with great pride at a club that never let us down, and post the cap rort penalties, a 10 year period in which this once great club has essentially became a shell of what it was. During this second phase, there hasn’t been much joy, if any, at the footy.
During season 2013 I took a deliberate step back from AFL footy primarily as I feared that the game has gone to places that I hoped I would never go. For somebody that grew up kicking the footy in the park until dark as kids, then attended 2 games most weekends and then committing to serious membership dollars this represents is a big shift in direction.
I approached this game with great trepidation as I have a great sense of what is right and wrong, and the sagas of this season have removed the game from what it used to be. You worked during the week then you played footy on weekends. Now it is uber professional and some have taken it beyond that.
On Saturday night I lost it, more than once, at the footy. The result infuriated me because to me it represented a mob who have done the wrong thing triumphing over a club that has played by the rules. I abused everybody and everyone – players, umpires, officials… the world. I said stupid things I am ashamed of in the heat of total frustration. This is not something I am proud of and I apologise to all and sundry for this. I realise that I have a serious issue and I am going to seek help for it.
As a result I am going to step away from elite-level football and dedicate myself to doing something more constructive with my time, such as helping out at local footy and sport.
I have been a member of this forum group since Brettie had 50 posts. I can’t do it anymore, the sport and this club have broken me and I must change. I wish you all the best in the future in your personal journeys, I wish the Essendon players who took any drugs to avoid any long term health consequence and I wish the game good luck because it needs it.
Many thanks people and regards always,
Professer E
Sorry to here PE. Good luck mate.